emotions.... freshly cut... im a fool...

I swear im soo screwed over...
I hate my life...
I've lost you...
its killing me like hell..
I'm missing you like crazy..
I really do not know what to do..
I have been feeling sick..
vomiting...
can not eat..
and i just do not give a shit about anything...
I want and need you..
but I promised myself that this was my last time and one day.. ill be over you..
hopefully...
every time we talk... just feels like nothing happened but when we have to go.. things just change soo much ...
It hurts soo much...
i do not know what to do..
i miss you soo bloody badly...
i hate myself...
i actually thought you were one..
i thought wrong...
i dont know what to do...
...................


that shining star... my brightest star...












Mario Brown- Belongs to you....

I'm completely
Dedicated
All my life I've waited for you
Understand that
If you need me
I'll go crazy
My heart belongs to you
Belongs to you

Lately I
I've been feeling so emotional
My heart is breaking, and I just don't know why 

I'm completely
Dedicated (Dedicated to you)
All my life I've waited for you (Waited just for you)
And understand
If you need me (And if you ever need me)
I'll go crazy
My heart (Heart)
My heart belongs to you


i love you... soo much it hurts....